The Grudge Lyrics by Olivia Rodrigo

The Grudge Lyrics by Olivia Rodrigo

I have nightmares each week about that Friday in May

One phone call from you and my entire world was changed 

Trust that you betrayed

Confusion that still lingers

You took everything I loved and crushed it in between your fingers

And I doubt you ever think about the damage that you did 

But I hold onto every detail like my life depends on it

My undying love

Now I hold it like a grudge

And I hear your voice every time I think I’m not enough

And I try to be tough, 

But I wanna scream

How could anybody do the things you did so easily 

and I say I don’t care

I say that I’m fine

But you know I can’t let it go

I’ve tried, I’ve tried, I’ve tried 

For so long

It takes strength to forgive but I don’t feel strong

The arguments that I have won against you in my head 

In the shower, in the car, and in the mirror before bed 

I’m so tough when i’m alone

And I make you feel so guilty

And I fantasize about a time you’re a little fucking sorry

 

And I try to understand why you would do this all to me 

You must be insecure, you must be so unhappy

And I know in my heart hurt people hurt people

And we both drew blood, but man those cuts were never equal

And I try to be tough, 

But I wanna scream

How could anybody do the things you did so easily

And I say I don’t care 

I say that I’m fine

but you know I can’t let it go

I’ve tried, I’ve tried, I’ve tried 

for so long

It takes strength to forgive but I don’t feel strong

ooh, do you think I deserved it all? 

ooh, your flowers filled with vitriol? 

You built me up to watch me fall

you have everything and you still want more

I try to be tough 

I try to be mean

But even after all this, you’re still everything to me and 

I know you don’t care

I guess that that’s fine

But you know i can’t let it go

I've tried, I’ve tried, I’ve tried 

for so long

It takes strength to forgive but 

I’m not quite sure I’m there yet

It takes strength to forgive but..